iN mEmOrY oF TaTay...

in few days we are all commemorating the memories of our love ones who past away.

our beloved tatay past away two years ago where i am out of the country. i havent had the chance to see him for the last time and it really break my heart.

in silence everytime i remember all those happy memories with him i couldnt help. but, tears keep on falling on my cheeks.when im talking bout him and fighting back the tears my voices is shaking.

tay, i want you to know that even its not all souls day your always be in my heart no matter what. i might not told you verbally how much i love you i know you knew deep in your heart that i do love you. and, you might not told me either too those words verbally. i knew,, i really knew how much you love me and my siblings.

let me introduce who is tatay we were calling by the way. he is not our biological father nor our step father. he is my fathers elder brothers whose always been there for us more than our father.

dont worry bout us tay, we were all okay here. i know you already found real happiness with our Creator. may you rest in peace.

we love you!

i DoN't hAVe A hEaRt....

what is the basis for love?

i knew deep within me that he is special but i don't know if its love. he wanted to come over but its only me who make so many excuses so that he cant come to our home. to be honest i don't have the guts to tell anyone that he is the one. maybe because he is not that gorgeous one and everytime we walk i felt that everyone is staring to us as if they saying something coz physically were not that okay.

we supposedly go to church to attend mass on sunday since my mom still doesnt know bout him i dont know what excuse i will make to my mom so that she will allow me to go out during sunday. instead of saying alibi to my mom, i made an excuse to him saying that my cousins are coming over to have chitchats with me. im unfair i know, but what should i do? last night we exchange so many text messages and he asked me to promise to him that no matter what happen i will not leave him. and he even said that he wont go to sleep unless i answer his request. i dont have a heart to hurt him but i dont think so that i have the heart to love him the way he wanted me too.

we started as a friends and now here we are lovers. i know he loves me more than i love him and thats what he also told me last night. and im thankful for it.

an old acquitance told me to better to fall in love with a guy who loves you more than you love him because for sure he will do everything just make you stay. here am i now, having a man who loves me more but what am i feeling right now? maybe i still need a little time to know him more and to understand the man.

hE sAiD .... He LoVeS mE....

we'd been friends way back then until we became lovers.. we've never seen yet personally we just met here in the net. many might react that its just an ordinary story meeting here in the net here and there with this high techonology. but, let me remind you though we were on the so called new generations. the meaning of love still doesnt change.

to make story short, we were now on our 9th month going on to our 10th month. by the way, we already met...theres no such thing like i saw all the stars when i saw his face but i felt comfortable as if we already knew one another in real life for so long. he is kind and thoughtful, he even brought me back home but my mother still doesnt know anything bout him but my sister knew but how we met still a mystery to them..oh, how can i tell them bout us? but im hoping one day i can have that courage to introduce him to my family.


many dont agree with love online i dont know if i'll gonna be one of those who fall and got married meeting their other half online. until my next story.

bLoGgIng...bLogGiNg...

i attended two days seminar about blogging and here am i now, trying to apply what i have learned from those two days. i already do have an old account but its not active and i want to start again to apply all the strategies and techniques i have learned.

on our day one our goal is to earn while on our day too our goal is to have followers on our blog.

i know that two days i had spent will be a great success..so, all you who wants to blog start now. and lets all have fun while earning.